A few days ago I noticed that my Ficus Benjamina had started to sprout tender new leaves.

Ficus BenjaminaIt always happens around this time, and it never ceases to amaze me that during the darkest time of the year here in Iceland, when daylight is considered a luxury, these brand-new shoots of life should spring forth. Just when you would think their natural tendency was to go into hibernation mode and just … shut down.

And then I am reminded that humans, too, renew ourselves during times of repose.

Once I thought that, in order to grow, I had to work relentlessly to make it happen. I thought that if I wasn’t putting in the effort then nothing would change. I wouldn’t change. And I wanted desperately to change because I had an awful malaise on the inside.

I worked and worked, fought and fought, struggled and struggled. And amazingly, I didn’t get very far. All that effort I was putting in, and things still weren’t turning out the way I wanted them to. So I tried harder, but all that did was make me feel worse. I was exhausted, spiritually, mentally and physically (all that emotional upheaval took its toll on my body, too).

Then someone suggested I stop. Just … STOP. Stop trying so hard.

That was really hard. I had no idea how to do it. I knew how to drive myself, but I had no idea how to rest. How to let myself be. But I started to learn. Slowly, gradually, I opened my mind to new things, and new solutions.

And amazing things happened. I realized that by letting go of the thought that only I could make things happen … they happened. All I needed to do was stop. To rest. I needed repose.

And in that repose, I started to grow.


  • andrea pratt
    Posted at 23:19h, 24 November Reply

    Hmm… this post has really made me think, which surprises me. (After all, I thought I already knew everything.) I’ve experienced that phenomenon in my career, but never learned to generalise the concept of stopping trying to make things happen in the rest of my life. Thanks, Alda. Going back to “hmmmm”ing some more. xo

  • alda
    Posted at 16:46h, 26 November Reply

    Thanks Andrea. Just to be clear, I’m not suggesting that you should just kick back and not do anything – that’s not what I mean by letting go. It’s more about humility and recognizing your limitations … doing the leg work, and then turning the rest over to the universe (or a higher power, or whatever one wants to call it :))

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